After a few short months of finally adjusting to my nightly dreams of chaotic interstellar and inter dimensional travel, i had finally accepted that this phenomenon im going through may never end. Ive become more humble and understanding throughout this journey.
As another day on earth passed i geared up for another timeline of discovery and adventure. As i closed my eyes and began to drift off into the abyss, I woke to discover that i was not in the tree where my energy would wake. this time I was at my familys house. I knew what this was, this dream alone had pushed me to the cusp of suicide and insanity.
It was midnight, the sky covered in clouds that not even the moons light could penetrate. I look at my mother who is slowly losing her life to brain cancer and kneel at her feet. Feeling that this was my last time being able to talk to her before she left i told her goodbye, that id be okay and that my love for her would shine so bright she could find it no matter where she went after this life. Kissing her soft cheek for the last time I busted out of the back door crying as i didnt want to wake anyone in the house. In a emotional fit i light up a cigarette and look down to discover a razorblade and a ripped peice of paper laying in front of me. Blank on the front, with writing on the back reading "Suffer she will if you wait, no more pain if your soul i can take. With blood you write your what you desire, then burn the note with hair and fire". Not being able to bare watching the woman who took care of me my entire life i was quick to cut my skin and begin writing "My mothers soul i wish to release, that she may have an afterlife with no pain, only peace". I walked over to the grill that sat on the deck in the backyard, taking the lighter i had used to light my smoke, i burned the paper. Moments later a hole in the sky would open with a a ominous blood red light shining down where i now stood. Winged beasts hurled from the sky in my direction and circled around me. Looking down i see a very strange diagram beneath my feet, glowing red and moving like a gear. They begin to chant in tounges, i cannot understand until finally a character mimicking Satan begins to appear out of thin air. The beasts then enter the house dragging my mothers almost lifeless body out and putting her by my feet. "Another mortal soul i shall take, this blood oath shall never break" A white energy begins to float from my mother body towards the sky's, forever gone from the world she loved. beasts held me down while Satan takes a knife from his tail. He would begin to cut me open and shackle my eternal soul to his, I was to walk with the damned and be tortured for all eternity. I would then wake up crying in a panic attack in my bed wishing that i was dead.
This time things were different, as Satan began to chant and bury his knife into my chest, he stopped and dropped the knife as something strange was happening. The knife began to glow bright pink. "Hi!!!!!" a very cute childish female voice came from the knife. Satan looking confused shouts "WHO DARES INTERRUPT MY CEREMONY". The knife begins levitate and take the shape of a little girl, who shines brighter than the sun, wearing a white dress with flowing blonde hair even when no wind blew. "Woah that was fun, i'm Ana!" extending her open hand to Satan expecting a hand shake. "YOU FOOLISH LITTLE GIRL, ILL BANISH YOU TO THE DEPTHS OF" Satan was cut of by Ana who put her hand over his mouth. "Thats not very nice we dont want to play with you anymore" says Ana. Suddenly she begin to glow brighter lighting up the entire area, until everything finally goes white.
I then wake up in the tree that i'm forever entangled with. Looking around i'm in my astral body. My skin blue and hair green, even my tail! Ecstatic that my Night terror had gone and i was back home i raced out of the tree to surround myself with the beauty i had created. Everything was calm and peaceful, until suddenly a tap on my shoulder. Turning around it was Ana, floating at my eye level, smiling and then wrapping her arms around me to hug me. "Im Ana i came from there" Her finger points to one of my 3 moons. "I could feel how much pain you were in so i came and brought you back to here, I hope you dont mind"
Ana now accompanies me on my travels, and for the span of about 2 months every night i had a night terror Ana was right there to stop it in some clever and cute fashion, and take me back home. When our journey has come to an end she becomes the core to one of my moons as i go to become core of my planet planet.
Tuesday, July 18, 2017
The next thing i can remember is waking up in a empty white room with only a door. Standing up i walked to the door opening it revealing a hallowed out wooden room. Nothing inside of it only wood and another door with beams of light penetrating through the window. Walking out side that door behind me now stood the most massive tree that my mind had ever even humored my mind. So tall that it penetrated the indigo
clouds and harboring hundreds of other plant life
occupying the thick bark.
Walking closer to this lake i felt a overwhelming attachment to the sun the planet orbited. The sensation of gravity was gone but everything else remained in place. I was being pulled closer and closer to the sun until i eventually was emerged inside of this bright gaseous ball of light.
All of this was very overwhelming i now knew i could never return to the world which i came from. I could only spectate from a distance never to return to the vessel that once held my energy. Never to see my family or the people that i had loved. I built a bridge between my world and the earth, spectating from the clouds and watching as my former self became a slave to man made things, having a family and losing his life to a robbery at the bank he managed. I watched as his kids grew up, and their kids and so on until i eventually grew tired of these repetitive creatures and floated off into space.
I spent time traveling between worlds and dimensions
meeting creatures of all kinds. Leaf creatures that were delivered their children by giant pelican like birds to their family's in exchange for food and tummy rubs. Planets where elephants with giraffes necks could fly with wings the size of ants. Anything imaginable was out there for me to spectate and watch as if i created it for entertainment and not be alone.
As time passed the universe became inhabitable, black holes that scaled to unimaginable proportions sucking in all light until nothing remained. On the other side particals smashed into each other forming a exact copy of the universe
before only with slightly different details.
Time had restarted and began to reform in a infinite loop.
I woke up from the dream in shock. My mind was exhausted and i felt so much different from the person i once was. Looking in the mirror my body remained the same, i was still this monkey looking thing that was known as a human. I could remember my dream but without the knowledge i once possessed or the power. I was just me again here on earth normal every day me.
These dreams happen every night, i wake on the same world in the same tree just with different things happening before the end of the current universe. I observe different events and sometimes spend a part of my time mimicking their image and blending in with their society. Life has become very strange for me since acid for good and bad.